What does it mean to be “Poor in Spirit”? You probably know that this sounds like one of the Beatitudes…it is. It happens to be the first one. Let’s look at Matthew 5:3 – “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” (NIV) When I read this verse the other day, the Spirit of God spoke to my heart, but I was not prepared for what came next. God kicked me out of my comfortable righteous home, and cast me to the streets.
I have been struggling a little recently. Most people will not admit they struggle with anything, but I guess I just did. Being in ministry for 20 years has been a blessing and also a burden. I know how to pray, counsel, visit the elderly and hurting, write articles once a month and prepare messages. By now, I can pretty much walk into a room with a Bible, and spout out something… Then I heard a knock on my door. The visitor asked me to step outside. It was a little awkward, but I obeyed. Then the visitor did the unexpected. He shut the door and stepped away so that the whole front of my house was in view. I was confused and wondering what he was going to do next, but I followed him. I noticed for the first time in a long time, that the outside of my house looked better than the inside. The inside was not that bad, mind you…I’ve been in worse. Yet the outside was nearly perfect. Each shudder was perfectly aligned, evey weed had been pulled, the landscaping was immaculate, and the driveway had no cracks. But for some reason I was drawn to look in my front picture window. When I peaked in, I noticed piles of junk in my living room. It wasn’t as bad as you would see on the Cable show “Hoaders“, but it was still there.
I heard my own voice say: “I can’t do this anymore…” “I have nothing else to give.”  “It’s too frustrating, and it doesn’t seem worth it anymore.” “I feel empty and uninspired.”
I had to ask myself if I really wanted to continue on like this. I didn’t, and I told God that very same thing. He was the visitor to my house that day. He took me to a place where I could see the junk that I have been storing…for some time. There was a stack of boxes that were marked ‘Frustration’. Another pile had the words ‘Anger, Bitterness, Unforgiveness’. The picture God painted for me made me want to crawl away and hide. Where could I go though? Instead, I admitted my condition.  When I did this, God’s grace came in like a flood. Looking through eyes of tears, once again into my picture window, all the boxes were gone. There wasn’t even a trace.
The key to becoming “Poor in Spirit” is admitting your condition. This is the place where God called me to, and I believe He is calling His True Church to…the place where you and I become open and honest before Him. Matthew 5 is not a remodeling project, it is a total home makeover. In Ezekial 18:31, we read, “Get rid of all of the evil things you have done. Let me give you a new heart and a new spirit. Then you will be faithful to me. Why should you die, people of Israel?”
I don’t know if you realized it before or not, but the Beatitudes are actually steps and I will give you a quick example of those steps. 1. First we recognize that we are in need (poor in spirit).  2. Then we repent (mourn) for doing things in our own strength. 3. We surrender control to God (meek). 4. We experience the presence of God and want more (hunger and thirst). These steps are from Max Lucado’s study called “Experiencing the Heart of Jesus”.
Understand this: God brought me to this place. It is not something that I or you can stir up in ourselves. I came to a place where He not only showed me what was in my heart, but also, helped me to see my desperate need for Him. It may seem like a bad thing at first…but really it’s an incredible gift. I am thankful for what God is doing in me, and I am praying that you experience Him also. Maybe God will speak something in you when you read this. To God be the glory forever!
P Ray